“Illusions”

I think if reincarnation is true, Harry Houdini must’ve reincarnated as a Kenyan politician. I mean, can these guys create smoke screens or what???!
Just think of any major graft story that has ever hit the headlines in Kenya and tell me of a satisfactory conclusion to it.
Goldenberg? Anglo leasing? Oil scandal? The budget error? Name it and I assure you that you’ll never find a satisfactory conclusion. The closest we came to a satisfactory conclusion was when Patni went vacationing in Kamiti.
But are our politicians and government entirely to blame? What about us as wananchi? What lengths do we go to in order to play our part? Other than the initial noise making, what else do we ever do? We even go to such pitiful heights as to glorify the offenders like they are some kind of heroes! I’ve heard not once people say what a cool, smooth and intelligent guy Kamlesh Pattni is. Seriously?? Do you have any idea how many steps back his scam took the country?
There is always a smoke screen moments after major scam surfaces. What happened to the initial Hague list scenario? The Mau forest thing came up? Before the Mau we had the maize scandal which came after the oil scandal. Recently we had the Ngong forest scandal which has been overshadowed by Ruto going to The Hague.
Here is some homework from me to you. Observe these whole Ruto going to the Hague thing and tell me if it’s the real deal or a smoke screen for something else or even better, see if you can pick the smoke screen that’s about to be created to cover Ruto and Hague. i.e., A thousand and one cases about Ruto being resurrected. Why now? To destroy Ruto’s career? Really? If Kenyan political history has taught me anything, it’s never what it seems!

25 to Life

I don't think she understands
The sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right
I would have stayed
But I've already wasted over half my life
I would have laid down and died for you
I longer cry for you
No more pain
Bitch you took me for granted
Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt
I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
Imma take control of this relationship
Command it
And I'm gonna be the boss of you now
goddammit
And what I mean is that
I'm will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out
This much you owe me
I gave up my life for you
Totally devoted to you
Why I've stayed
Faithful all the way
This is how I fucking get repaid?
Look at how I dress
Fucking baggy sweats
Go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you
I ain't heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me
I deserve respect
I've done my best to give you
Nothing less then perfectness
And I know that if I end this
I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase
It's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back
So don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done
No need to go in depth
I told you you'd be sorry
If I fucking left
I laughed while you wept
How's it feel now?
Yeah funny ain't it
You neglected me
Did me a favor
Let all my spirit free
You've said
Got a special place for you
In my heart
That I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life...
I feel like
When I bend over backwards for you
All you do is laugh
 Cu z that ain't good enough
You expect me to fold myself in half
Till I snap
Don't think I'm loyal
All I do is rap
How can I moonlight on the side
I have no life outside of that
Don't I give you enough of my time?
You don't think so do you?
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I'm married to you still
Man I don't know
But tonight I'm serving you with papers
I'm divorcing you
Go marry someone else
And make em famous
And take away their freedom
Like you did to me
Treat em like you don't need em
And they ain't worthy of you
Feed em
The same shit that you made me eat
I'm moving on
Forget you
Oh now I'm special
I didn't feel special when I was wit you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this
So many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this
But in my sickness
And addiction
Your addictive as they get
Evil as they come
Vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking me
Why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress
The drama
I'm drawn to shit
So I guess I'm a mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
Your screaming as I walk out
That I'll be missed
But when you spoke of people
Who meant the most to you
You left me off your list
Fuck you hip hop
I'm leaving you
My life sentence is served bitch
And it's just
Too late
For the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life...

Forever Young

This will be my first blog... and hopefully not my last.. its mainly dedicated to my late mother Virginia. W. Huruko who passed away on 8th February 2011. I heard this song today and it hit my heart... at least i know i still have it in me.. my heart, i mean... its a country song, i don't know its title nor its writer but its touching... really touching...

May God bless you and keep you always, may your wishes all come true.

May you always do for others and let others do for you,

May you build a ladder to the stars and climb on every wrung,

and may you stay...    forever  young,

may you stay...      forever young.

May you grow up to be righteous, 

May you grow up to be true...

May you always know the truth and see the light surrounding you.

May you always be courageous, stand upright and be strong,

and may you stay...    forever  young,

may you stay...     forever young.

May your hands always be busy, may your feet always be swift.

may you have a strong foundation when the winds of changes shift..

and may your heart always be joyful, may your song always be sung...

and may you stay...    forever  young,

may you stay...   forever young.

I listened to it more than 23 times, and it grew on me... trouble is it was a movie, nah, seasons track. One called Sons Of Anarchy. Its wrong on so many levels in the series because it revolves around death, guns but also love...
i think im growing emotional and if you know me, thats not my strong suit.
Let me say that i have alot to say to you all but for now this is my tribute to my mum.

REST IN PEACE.